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Tuesday 24 July 2012

The Seven Ages



No you don’t know how it is to eat up your thoughts,
No you have no idea how it feels when you stop yourself from breaking out, it is not patience it is a disease. It is one of those scars that never heal. It makes you sweat it gives you sleepless nights.
Will I ever be able to put that across? I know I can do it so much better. I know I can give it a shot.

Then WHY?
Pseudo-intellect, belonging or standing outside the crowd… What is it?
You should know that, this is about you, what we are discussing is you, what we want to figure out is you, what we really want to do is you.
Why this huge shell? What are you hiding?

You know what?
I am done being different let me throw on a dirty T-shirt and walk in the rain.
I want to dig the soil. I want to sow seeds and turn them into trees.
I want to sit and watch them grow each day, every day.
I want to take out all those books and read. I want to wake up early and make tea for my family.
I want to spend time with my mother; I want to tell her that I love her. I want to hug my dad I want to tell him that he is doing a great job and that he is my hero.
I want to play video-games with my brothers, I want to sleep with them and talk till the world ends.
I want to meet my grandparents I want to love them and bring them back on earth from the heavens.
I want to be there for my friends I want to have closer friends.
Ahh! I have so much unfinished business to do.

I know my child but do you know what you need to know…
All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,



and so will you, you are no superhuman you need to sit down and think. You need to know what is wrong and what is right, you are a gifted child and while making you it took me a while.



Go home make that garden.
Plan that unplanned trip, be there for your family.
Write a letter to your mother send a book to your father.
Talk to your brothers brings them into the picture.
They are the people who will actually stick to you until the very end.
Think of it now or perhaps it will be too late.
Look for what you have, don’t seek love in the world, love resides into you.



For now I am leaving but I will be back soon, you will have new worries you will have new stories. Just remember it is all about the choices that you will make.






Thursday 9 February 2012

Lost.

Yes I am just another lost person on the face of planet earth. 
The Difference? 
I know I am lost.

Sunday 5 February 2012

He:He




He saw himself standing at the crossroad again
Crossroads, they always keep him funny
When going home is no more a choice
When friendship is no more comforting
When things are necessarily not right 
Let’s make a drink for the Uptown boy
How come you always speak of scars and pains?
He is a pseudo, a drama maybe.
Who knows his biggest fear is pseudo itself?
From coffee, marijuana and the no battery sign
From talking and talking and talking
From broken hearts to broken bones
From adversaries to the unknown
From thirty seconds to eleven minutes
It’s not his story it’s really his own
Who says its devil? its maybe just evil

Falling down and digging graves
Only to find oneself at the mausoleum door
For those who died way too young
For those who left the loved ones
For those who were never born
For those who could never walk this earth
He ain’t no Saint Jimmy
For he lacks all the rage and the eyeliner
For he never walked across the road
For he never felt the cold.

Wednesday 1 February 2012

Awkward-Silence



Sometimes they are just noises, sounds dangling in your ears, sounds that make no sense to you sounds that are so loud that you might just get a heartache out of them. It is strange how I am never part of these sounds how I am always at the receiving end sulking and waiting. Sometimes I see a rage in me a burning fire a rage that wants to cut across a passage right through these sirens and alarms and batteries and go to vacuum. Vacuum where I can hear myself sing where I can hear myself cry. Have you ever tried to derive sense out of the fracas, boom, wohoo, quack-quack, psh-psh-psh, mew, jug-jug? I think these sounds will be a mystery for me forever and always. They have this term called awkward silence I find it really hilarious. I mean what are they saying? Is it that the sounds have become so much a part of them that now they find silence awkward? I wonder what will be awkward in future full stops and commas? Sometimes I wish I was born mute or maybe what if the world was mute, NO SOUNDS. How sane that would have been? Alas! This world is not a movie and I ain’t no movie star. While writing this sitting in my class I was reminded of a few lines which I read in my school by Pablo Neruda from the poem keeping quite…

if we could do nothing for once,
perhaps a great silence would
interrupt this sadness,
this never understanding ourselves
and threatening ourselves with death,
perhaps the earth is teaching us
when everything seems to be dead
and then everything is alive.
Now I will count to twelve
and you keep quiet and I'll go.


How much hollow our lives are from the inside? How much are we hiding under the toe? How much of pain are we keeping below that beautiful speech?
Think about it
Now I will count to twelve
and you keep quiet and I'll go.





Sunday 11 December 2011

All that I’ve got.


Birds they don't sing for you
Winds they don't blow for you
Sun it never shines on you
Water, Rain it never falls on you 
It is the winter that blossoms 
It is under your skin 
And it is making you cold
And colder as the time is passing 
I see a coffin 
Its a winter dusk
I'm sorry if I miss out on a detail or two, I guess I'm just way too drunk. 
And I see you lying with chains wrapped around you.
I don't wanna go closer I prefer standing on the door.
I move around to get a better view
I see you all dressed up in blue 
It’s not the marijuana it’s really just you. 
It is the loneliest funeral I'd ever seen. 
It’s you, right beside you.

After all it’s not really the end and I'm sure you died pretty much alive. 
I see you tangled in those chains.
It seems you are trying to fix something. 
I'm draped in fog and it’s really getting cold, I don't want to be rude but I just feel like going home.
Don't call me cold, maybe you are just expecting too!

You want to be heard, you want to be seen, you want to be loved you want it all back. 
But why don't you just once on the face of earth wait and think, think of those times when I wanted to be heard when I wanted to be seen when I wanted to be loved when I wanted nothing but you it was you who was my undisclosed pleasure.

It’s funny how you've yet again left me here standing breathless thinking of you even when you are gone, I envy you. 
I'm running low on heat and my car has no gasoline.
And don't worry about me 
I'll be just fine I'll go to the church, I'll still believe 
I'll be far from empty spaces
I'll sing again and I will enjoy the rain
Coz in the end its all that I've got







Wednesday 16 November 2011

Love.


And the band is marching,
It gets sad when you are on the pavement
Looking at the shining stars
Yes it burns, you would never ever understand
You play the lead, you are the frontman
And I cry every night cursing the skies
Here comes another day, will I survive
Rubbing and brushing and putting some more on
Ah! Ugly, why do I always try?
And I see them talking words and things
Beautified much or is it just fake?
And the new dawn it just fades
Feeling better about oneself?
Funny as it may sound shallow is the concept
As the band proceeds
I see the frontman
He sings a song about life, but what is it that he’s  gonna do when he sees the light?
And the lovers dancing over the fake smiles and the dogs wandering with hollow lies
The pavement is suddenly less lonely
The fear, the fright is going with the band
For love it is within you
It sees itself sitting next to you
We sit as we did never before
Talking goes mute
I can hear a distant music
The band it just marched by… 



Tuesday 15 November 2011

I am a Chemical.


She is a scientist 
she makes it and breaks it
thats wonderful!
dude thats shit!

me I'm just a chemical
chemical in her lab
unused! untouched! unnoticed!
I don't shine I don't glitter
dust is all that matters.

she comes in black
all the chemicals lits up
and then he asked hey dusty why dont you glitter

stars glitters! sky glitters! black glitters!
why do you want me to glitter?
I'm the dark I'm the emo I'm the dead I'm the chemo

she goes away with the glitter and I am left with my darkness!


and she enters... 

she comes in and takes away all the glitter, leaving the chemical to sleep alone in the darkness bitter the chemical don't glitter and so the chemical lie, all sad and bitter but the chemical don't know that she hides him...away from the sun shine she puts on her boots she walks in the lab she loves living in her world of dark chemical filter sit fascinates her that chemical don't glitter and so she asks dusty why he doesn't glitter but the dusty's just a loving cold chemo in water he just won't tell her he'll make her cry and he wouldn't even know dusty's just a loving cold chemo, he's dead, he's emo...